So, we are at another Fullmoon. This time it dances around the degrees of Chiron, the wound, the redemption and the healer. Thanks to human history’s succulent past, this subject is so grand I would have to fill volumes just to cover a little inch of it.
Our history is so rich with deceit, betrayal, weakness and pain, that it can make you wonder if there is an author up there who really had thing for bad lovestories and un-ending wars. And just like a soap, you can sit on the end of your chair and think, yes, finally the two lovers get eachother, but then, no, they manage to create another mess due to lies, misunderstandings, fears and whatever annoying thing you have. Just to keep us on tuning in to the next episode. “So annoying” I always think, “why so difficult? I can’t watch this, it is just draining my energy.”
So why, and then again, Chiron consciousness. It is all about understanding the weltschmerz, the repeated pain. Or as my colleague Lynda Hill describes it: “Chiron is the story we tell ourselves” In other words, it is the narrative of earth.
The astrologer is a narrator. He or she informs either to sell fear or to set free humanity from fatalism. I must say I hope to fall in the last category. So as a narrator, the astrologer can help people with their narrative, the stories they tell themselves.
Sounds very easy. Hm. But. Always a butt.
But Chiron is also this magnificent paradox of being half God, full of potential, and half Man, the body, earth and all its challenges. A man who knew a bit about Chiron was DH Lawrence: He was born with a pretty thight Sun-square-Chiron, so he lived the archetype.
“I am not a mechanism, an assembly of various sections.
And it is not because the mechanism is working wrongly, that I am ill.
I am ill because of wounds to the soul, to the deep emotional self
and the wounds to the soul take a long, long time, only time can help
and patience, and a certain difficult repentance
long, difficult repentance, realization of life’s mistake, and the freeing oneself
from the endless repetition of the mistake
which mankind at large has chosen to sanctify.”
He suffered from tuberculosis and felt deeply wounded by this illness that kept him from living his full potential. Changing the narrative of an illness demands a deep healing, a redemption, a fundamental change. The energy of disease has to die to be released. The theme of redemption and liberation is grand with this fullmoon.
The wounds of earth are real. History left its trace and some people are conscious of their duty to cleanse the field of illness. This is why we have teachers like Jesus and Buddha to look to when it comes to understanding the basic skills we need to integrate in order to get to a state of healing.
Compassion is one of the virtues that humanity could profit from cultivating, just so we can let go of poisons and pains. Chiron knew a lot about compassion, embodying the principle of acceptance.
Chiron was a honorable Centaur living among men who trained to be heroes, people who fought and competed, other centaurs who got drunk and almost killed eachother. He was an abandoned child, blessed with the gift of the Seer; an astrologer, healer, a master of herbs. A teacher for the teachers, a teacher of heroes, an example for others. His is a story of inflicted wounds that held him in incurable pain, and the release and liberation through the cultivation of acceptance.
And this reminds us of the story of Judas and Jesus. Judas betrayed Jesus, but Jesus knew that Judas had to carry the weight of his deceit for years, and Jesus only wanted him to be free. He himself wasn’t wounded, although he ended up bleeding on the cross for it. Still, that is compassion: “Father forgive them for they don’t know what they do”
That is true experience. Or as Rumi puts it:
“Love is fearless in the midst of the sea of fear.”
While these masters walked on water, the rest of world was always waiting for love to be served. And when there is a passive need to have others shower you with love, it morphs into a distorted variety of martyrism, sadism and masocism. Those who are trained to help fails miserably when caught up in wrong understanding of what is disease and what is healing.
I truly believe that one day we will all be free, but until then, this Moon reminds us at that healing is a process.
The stages of healing could be summed up like this:
- Denial: I am not wounded.
- Anger: I cannot do anything with and it is not fair. Why did this happen to me?
- Negotiation: If I become a better human being and do some good, can I be free?
- Depression; Now all is lost.
- The beginning of healing: Acceptance: Ok, so my foot won’t grow out again, I can still have a life.
- Rebirth: A time to meet yourself in a new way, integrating truth into life.
- Creating a new life: Living more fully. Healed from the past.
The dark night of the Soul is these first stages of the healing process. It takes time to see deep into the patterns of life and to truly find healing. So many are stuck on level one, pretending to be above the need to heal. To be vulnerable and open up challenges our self-image to such an extent that the “king” or “queen” in us believe that no one will respect him or her if they open up. The wound protects itself. Just like a cat that will hiss at you if you touch a wounded place. So first thing is to learn to trust again. Let things breathe a bit.
Healing is a process. It takes time, effort and the cultivation of love.
And with this, I wish you a wonderful healing fullmoon.